So i have this FB that was going well. We both live in different countries, and just text between meets. She spends a lot of money to come to see me on occasion and we recently went away on a 2 week trip together.

Shes 40 while im 24. Now nothing can reasonably develop from this for many reasons and i dont want it to, however it has still effected me so i need advice.

On this trip she confessed while crying that she “really liked me” and wanted to see me more, however said “but i dont want to stop you seeing other people”. Wasnt sure what this meant. She acknowledged that we are in very different stages of life a few times.

Towards the end of our trip, she also said that she isnt sure we can continue to talk as it will be too painful/difficult after this. It was a very intense trip where we didnt even leave each otherse sides much, had a lot of sex and did a shit load of activities with many ups and downs. Before this we did not really know each other well.

She tested me a lot but i guess i passed most of them. She suspects i sleep around and got very jealous if i talked to any other women while we were on the trip.

Looks wise i’m very Athletic and decent facially, where she is decent for her age (is japanese so looks younger). From smv view i guess mine is higher despite the career differences(shes well established in finance while im a student).

Anyway, im kinda struggling after such a unique strong experience and idk what to do. I’d like to keep it going, maybe travel together in the future but idk how to initiate that, i also dont really know what she is likely after herself with me and what her over all intentions are.

I know her interest was initially super high and options probably limited(and from what she decribed about her past relationships, shes has a history of betas who she could bend to her will so i may be a rarity here).

How should i proceed? I never enjoyed a womans company for any reason other than sex before but this was different.