During my work day I am constantly worrying about whether my girlfriend still likes me, if I passed the last shit test or not, if something I said to her was stupid, etc. Sometimes I am just nervous and it's about nothing at all in particular. I am just thinking about her and being nervous.

Logically I think I should be able to relax and stop stressing so much. I have been doing everything right for the majority of the relationship:

-I took her virginity and we have been together for 6 months almost, so we have a good "pair bond".

-She orgasms every time we have sex. After having sex with her hundreds of times I have gotten pretty good if I do say so myself. I can't imagine she would want to hook up with anyone other than me.

-I text her half as much as she texts me, and mostly for logistics.

-She is 95% the one who asks me to see her, at the end of the night she is always begging me to make a plan for the following day or the day after (so she is pursuing me not the other way around)

-I never compliment her on her appearance even when she dresses up for me, which I know is insanely autistic, but it works...the less validation I give her the more she tries

-I do my very best to hold a masculine frame, not only when we are hanging out, but with my coworkers and friends now too. So basically all the time. I sometimes act silly and goofy with my immediate family but I have seriously adjusted my tone and my humor for everyone else.

-Most of all I have gotten in good shape and got a good job which has given me real confidence for the first time in my life. There's no reason for me to worry about not getting laid if me and my girlfriend break up.

Despite all these things (which as you may have guessed, I have just written down for my own self just as much as the reader of this post) I have so much anxiety since dating my gf. I don't know why exactly, maybe I have an underlying anxiety disorder, maybe I just have ptsd from not getting laid for several years in college. One time I was so nervous during a 2 day period I didn't see my girlfriend, that I took a couple Valium and just didn't give a fuck about anything for the better part of the two days. When the two days were up and we hung out, it was awesome, I had nothing to worry about the whole time.

Obviously taking drugs is not a sustainable option. If anyone has a suggestion on how to chill the fuck out and focus on other stuff when the GF is not around, please share, I would appreciate it.

I will say just as a final note that yes, I do work out and I do have a "passion", practicing music. These things do help with my anxiety but there is only so many hours you can do both per week. My room is clean and my laundry is done too. I am so lost.