Hello guys.

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What I want to know is how to start putting myself frst. Like when I have a choice to go to sleep earlier or to go out with a girl that doesn't like me that much anyway, such kind of situations. It might be due to me having a long depressive phase I'm working on but I have this weird sensation like my life could end anytime soon so I go on such subpar dates with such not-really-attracted girls not to waste my life. I can't switch my thinking to the mode that I most probably will live another 1,2,5,10,30 years and should invest in myself now to reap rewards later. On the other hand again, I don't want to feed my hamster with unnecessary monk mode. Circuits in my brains burn. Help me please.