I've come to realize that beyond my pursuit of sex, I lack basic social skills to even make friends. I have almost no one to talk to or hang out with. I ask people to hang out and I routinely get ignored. Facebook messages or texts to talk or try and rekindle old friendships are often ignored or met with bare minimal responses. I'm never invited any where or have conversation initiated on me unless someone needs something specific from me.

I'm in a nerdy major at college where others are just as disheveled, unattractive, out of shape and un-alpha as I can be yet, at the very least, they band together and do things while I am left out. So even in a social plane where being alpha and a leader doesn't really matter, I still can't establish even superficial bonds even where the bar is set much lower.

I must have made a lot of weak and bad impressions and have a bad reputation to have this sort of social life, but I don't know how I've established such a consistently undesirable presence. I've left out information about myself because I am at such a loss that I don't know what's relevant to put in given that my failures even extend to places where SMV measures don't really matter (nerdy major group). I've been trying to up my SMV recently by losing weight, being more aware of social cues and my reactions to people, working on my degree, but there doesn't seem to be any gains. I'm really at a loss.