For me, I always get the sense that people don’t really like me or they think I’m a dick. Whether they say it overtly or covertly, you can just tell that parts about what I say or do come off wrong.

I try my best in social situations, and be lighthearted but seems like I present this unwelcome vibe towards others. I just keep working on everything, body language, etc.

Even going to the gym, one of the trainers started looking at me like I wtf was I even doing in the gym. I’m trying my best to lift and not look like shit. I went to the shower and had this thought he was hanging around aside and then when I left he was hanging around and said bye like he has keeping an eye on me.

I don’t really trust people or smile I guess. I try to keep out of people’s way since I know I’m just going to fuck it up and keep a fairly close friends circle.

Since I generate bad reactions or body language from people it sort of bleeds into interactions with girls. When the world has been telling you that you’re a cunt all day you don’t really even feel like enjoying yourself or having an attempt.

I feel like if I can make people around me loosen up, laugh more and seem amenable to my company that could help me. I’ve got a lot of social situations coming up this month- weddings and all sorts. Want to make the most of them and stop doing whatever I’m doing to really dour the atompshere lose frame and then fuck up any chances.

I realise I probably need to just work on TRP and applying principles. I’ve cut video games and still need to limit other bullshit.