Former beta , trying to get over an old beta tendency. I’ve busted my ass to improve myself tremendously but I think I’ve overshot and rose a little too quickly. It’s a good problem to have but a problem nonetheless.

I get a reasonable number of HB8s and HB9s who are interested in me on a regular basis to the point of hooking up. I never go all the way because mentally I don’t feel “practiced” enough to be fucking them because I have an average size and I’m a virgin. (I’m 19)

I felt like if I had a 6 who was a total stranger to just practice with that would be swell- but I refuse to tinder or any of that shit because I believe purely in real world practice.

I’m too busy to hunt down a 6 in my environment and I’m always at my business during the days and most evenings.

I also don’t wanna start fucking too many 6s or else I’m no better than an average chump who settles for what he thinks he’s worth.

The problem with the 8s & 9s is that I’ve known some of their former exes which include football players and other athletic and massive dudes- I’m 5 11 and while I don’t have height insecurity , I know damn well those guys are packing more in the bedroom than me.

I also know first time is the worst and I truly want to have good regular sex with the HB8s and 9s so I don’t to fuck them and have them be bored or realize I have no clue.

How do I pull this off- upping my performance without having to burn through my 8s & 9s as practice...