I got news yesterday that I will have to re-do a year of my university studies. I don't think it's fair that I have to re-do, but at this point I don't think I can appeal it. Some of the people who got through are a bit doey.

It will cost me:

  • Financially: loss of scholarship, loss of free accomm I was going to have next semester, extra money on uni debt, extra year out of workforce.

  • Socially: We are a small program. Re-doing a year is definitely a black mark. I will have to join the cohort in the lower grade.

  • Confidence: This is something I have worked hard to build over the past year. RP has really helped me in this regard.

  • Relating to my gf: This is mainly in regards to the confidence aspect. We've been dating for about 4 months. Over the past couple of months she has definitely seen me at weak points. I don't complain to her about problems, but she has definitely seen how distracted / stressed I have been. Having that work count for nothing is humiliating.

I lift and eat well, although some other leisure activities (reading, hobbies etc) have taken a backseat in my life over the past few months.