So i fixed many problems within my life, and im a better person than what i was before. Im only having a couple issues in my life, but i want to focus on one that can RUIN my life.

Im having issues sexually controlling myself. I never want to use a condom and i have to force myself.

About three months ago during sex i felt something shoot out my dick. (wasnt wearing a condom) I got so paranoid after and the next day i bought plan B for my gf. She ended up getting her period and all went well. I told myself "Ill always wear a condom, no matter what."

Well eventually ive been getting urges to go bare back even though shes not on birth control.

I broke yesterday, i used a condom but then for round two i didnt....i told myself use a condom and i ignored it.

Im buying plan b for her to take again.

I just dont know how to force myself to wear a condom even if i want to go raw. The urge is strong. My gf said shes going to promote me to use the condom even if she wants me to go raw as well.

but i want to have the power myself to ALWAYS wear a condom. Help me out, thanks.