After reading the handbook and lurking for a while I realized how Beta I am. I am in anger now but I also keep remembering all my past interactions with women and all the beta stuff I did and even though thr red pill has helped me not to repeat past mistakes, I keep overthinking past mistakes and how I could act different.

for example I "had" oneitis with a friend of mine and she was regularly texting me random memes or to chat, and one day I texted her complimenting her saying she is so sexy in her lates instagram post and she replied with thank you foe your kind words neighbor, instead of my name like she usually did. And now I regret sending that text and I feel awkward. I might see her tonight at a party of a friend of ours and I don't know how to lose these thoughts. what's the process of not feeling like this?It's like I need someone to tell me it's not a big deal I send that text so I can move on with my life