To be honest, its just not something i truly believe in.

I mean, i want children one day & i do want to be fufilled. But when it comes to dating, its just... nah.

I mean, knowing what i know now, i just don’t think the care is genuine. I don’t care how often you suck my dick, give me money to pay a bill, or badger me. Its just not something i’m willing to open up to.

I mean, where was all this energy before, when i was 100% SEEKING commitment?

I just fill like i’m not liked for “me”.

Now i’m the picky one.

In the end, though, i feel like i may end up alone.

Am i crazy? Or this the guy version of the CC & i should lock down a chick later?

Its a combo of distrust & making up for lost time