I'll try and keep this short since nobody wants to hear my whole life story. If this isn't the right sub please point me to the right direction and I'll delete it and repost there.

I'm Intelligent, smart, and I have a bright future ahead of me, I've been told. I know this is true, but I can't make myself do what I want. I lack discipline and even my father tells me this. I could be Einstein but if I don't apply my self that doesn't mean shit.

I'm afraid of ruining my future, but I've gone this far and haven't fucked up yet have I? I graduate from high school this summer and when I go off to university I won't have my parents and teachers telling me to do my work, stop procrastinating, etc.

For lent I gave up reddit, soda, Instagram and league of legends since those things were taking my time and not helping me in any way. A week ago I got back on reddit to read "useful advice" and ended up browsing get motivated (and still do). Yesterday I played league with my friends since it's been almost 2 weeks since we've played together and ended up playing for 6 hours straight.

It felt good playing, but afterwards I felt like shit. I laid in bed wondering why I wasted time on that. Same thing with prolonging my homework to browse reddit the whole day then sit in class looking like this with ear buds in my ear contemplating my life then repeating the same thing the next day. This has been going on for 2 months. I'm growing more distant with friends I used to have because of my lack of social interaction because I'm always dwelling on things I did wrong and how to "fix myself".

Since summer ended I've stopped going to the gym since my parents want me to focus on my studies and I can lift all I want in college, but I feel that's what messed with my discipline. Now I can't get a gym membership, but I have dumbells at home, a treadmill and trees I can do pull ups off of but won't.

This isn't anybody's fault but mine and I accept this, but I feel helpless and I know it won't be soon till I majorly fuck up and ruin my life.