I've been reading, learning ,practicing and making changes to my lifestyle because of the red pill and I love it. I took the pill a year ago but I still have a lot to learn. Here's my problem: I'm back home from college and I ran into my ex (who caused me to swallow the pill). I was nice and acted like nothing ever happened between us. Then I met her boyfriend, and they talked about and showed me the pictures of her vacationing and what not. I felt crushed, devastated and lost.

I don't know what to do now. I feel like I'm back at square one. I'm frustrated, angry and depressed. I don't know what to do. I still hit the gym 3 times a week and I want to keep improving but now I'm under the mentality of "what's the point"? She's got me beat. She's ahead of me. I'm shifting between anger and depression phase. I have gone monk mode for the first 6 months when I first swallowed the pill and I'm considering going at it again but not sure if that'll help. For reference, I'm 19.

How can I re-rebuild myself and come back even stronger?