Sooooo. I'm having a hard time at the moment. Letting way too many things get on top of me. (it's almost as if I'm actually consciously doing it) 21 by the way.

I'm in this constant state of cognitive dissonance that I can't shake due to addiction. I've cut back A LOT recently, however, I'm still smoking the broccoli wands It feels like every problem that I worked to eliminate over the past year and a half have come back with a vengeance. Smoking is just the go to for my blame. Even though I could agree that there is a multitude of problems.

Like I've just stated, I've already fixed myself up before, so inb4 a lot of you point out that I know how to do it. I think I forgot the mindset I need to be in at the start of my transformation. It doesn't help that I'm in an LTR at the minute. (Aye she fucking looks after me though boys)

So basically, older gents, younger gents and all men inbetween give me a bollocking that my great grandfather would be proud of.

Upon reading what I just typed I realise that I sound like a huge poose but still, at least take it as an oppurtunity to roast me. Seriously. I need a stern word and my dad is at best a cuck.

Thanks