I know this subreddit might laugh at this post but I dont know where to go with this and I have respect for the mindset of men on here so here goes...

Im 18, go to Uni, lift very consistently and intensively 4x per week, eat 70% clean.

However for the last year or so I've been feeling very emotionless even towards my best friends/family and in general dont feel much joy in things.

This makes interacting with other people very awkward since I dont feel "engaged" in the conversation and I feel like I need to fake listen and react to them. People catch on to it easily and avoid me.

Unless... I get little to no sleep, then I feel normal again, conversations flow and I feel better overall, more natural. I feel like my body produces more dopamine or something when Im sleep deprived.

I had bloods drawn this summer and everything came back fine.

My life quality is really suffering because of this... should I try going on medication?

Also if you have a subreddit to recommend Id appreciate it.