I'm really very surprised why I feel this way. I've been applying TRP for more than a year, spinned some plates. I'm 28 and had only one massive oneitis in my life which was my ex-LTR of 9 years. She was very attractive, smart and a virgin when I met her. I used this to my advantage because most plates didn't compare to her, so I felt oneitis wouldn't ever struck me again. Adding the red pill knowledge I thought I was unaffected.

So I get this plate 5 months ago. She had a boyfriend. I saw her once a week, she was totally crazy about me. I enjoyed being with her alot but wasn't "in love". Once a week was more than enough for me. She wanted to branch swing and a I refused.

So last month she left her boyfriend and a week later got a new one (a back up orbiter). I stopped contacting her for 3 weeks and was totally fine but one day I was slightly horny (hungover horniness) and messaged her. We met and fucked however this new boyfriend of hers is very controlling and extreme jeaulousy. She don't want to risk the new relationship. She says he doesn't fuck around like me and wants to settle down.

I said fine and didn't show any weakness. I won't lie to you as soon she stepped over my car and walked away it was like someone just grabbed my throat. I didn't slept good and I couldn't focus in my work today. The nostalgia of our good moments hurted all day.

I never considered her for a LTR because she is a cheating whore and because I don't want one LTR right now. But today I fantasized being in one with her. Of course I wouldn't do that, I'm not crazy. But damm this feeling sucks. I never thought it was possible to feel this again. Any red pill veterans still get oneitis? I'm finding it hard to control my emotions.