Hello, i'm an 18 year old male that has 2 friendzoned girls since I was like 12 and I do not know anything about sex/kissing or anything, I am probably what you guys call a beta(probably a beta to the extreme or something). I am socially awkward, I do not know how to speak to girls other then the bffs that friendzoned me and I want to improve myself to become the best version of myself, I want to just fuck so badly, I have no desire to get into a relationship with a girl since I have my friends I can hang out with

I am quite muscular for my age, I go to the gym 5-6 times a week and have been for the last 2 years but I have a lot of acne which makes my confidence worse then Feminists. I am 6ft tall and weigh about 220 pounds, I'm a big guy.

My question is, how do I start swallowing TRP?? Are there any videos that I can watch or soundbooks I can listen too since i'm retarded when it comes to reading and nothing sticks in my head. If there are none, where do I start reading to get the knowledge I need to become the man I want to be?