I’m feeling like shit posting this but need a kick in the ass.

36 190lbs Bench: 275 Squat: 365 DL: 385

I’ve been under an enormous amount of stress for the last several months due to work, studying for a certification and moving.

COVID restrictions have mostly lifted here in FL. LTR is traveling for work for the first time in the 1.5 years we’ve been together.

Last night in a moment of weakness, I got drunk and started worrying about her traveling. I downloaded Tinder and set my location to where she is staying. Of course, she wasn’t on there. I trust my LTR and I am feeling like a little bitch for having my scarcity mentality creep back up on me for the first time in several years.

I realize this is not a big deal. I’m just in my fucking head.

Besides lifting, meditation and my mission, what else can I do to be proactive about not letting this doubt get to me?