I have exercised, eaten well but still keep thinking about my ex. I have dreams about her. I messaged her the other day but she said she has moved on. I just wanna message her and say sorry and tell her how much she meant to me but I have deleted her phone no. And don't know who to contact as it is 4 am and I haven't slept. It's been 2 months since we broke up. What should I do? I have mental problems like depression etc as well and I am planning to transfer or drop out from my masters. I have a s**tty undergrad only. I have been abused throughout my life. I love my ex and just can't sleep. Ive banged other girls as well and hired escorts too but none loved me the way she did. I just wanted to cuddle with the women I slept with and dream about hugging my ex. I know you guys will down vote me for all this but this is how I feel Bros. Can't help it