I've been in this LDR for about 2 years now. When we first met, it all came together perfectly. We have a lot in common, we are both sexually compatible, and I was even responsible for her discovering that she is actually bi sexual. Sex is great, time with her is amazing, she makes me feel good when we are together, and she is independent self sufficient woman, from a wealthy family, not materialistic and really focused on business and with very high moral standards, communication is still somewhat great but....

as soon as she finished her uni, she changed, but not for good. the walls of texting slowly faded, she stopped writing every hour, and communication was taking a dive. after alot of confronting, where I even though she was cheating on me she finally confessed. It was shit she heard about my family, and that her mother put pressure on her for being in relationship with me that made her doubt herself and our relationship. Of course i was pissed, and fucking angry. even tho she said it on multiple occasions she would confess if she ever cheat on me, i still didnt believe her, but never had reasons to doubt her tbh. everything she ever said i could easily check, and it made perfect sense.

the biggest hit came after she announced she is going on a 3 day vacation, to clear her head after all the drama. I was ok with it, until she told me she asked few of her friends to go with her. apparently none of them could go, except this one guy. I know the guy, he is not my friend but he really is typical beta tbh. I didnt want to sound or even look like someone who thinks she would fuck with other guys, not to mention i dont think this guy could ever threaten me in that regard i let her go with him. but then i made the mistake.... i called her after she arrived and acted like a total jealous bitch. this is where things went to shit. I know I let myself be seen as someone who is insecure. I'am 100% sure she did not fuck with him. but still after all that drama, i believe she lost some kind of respect for me. After that I couldn't take it anymore and i had to see her. So i booked a flight, and I was pretty much sure i want to break up with her. Then when we met, there were alot of tears, apologies and ofc make up sex. I know she has a really busy schedule since she runs a restaurant, and study for her masters, but for the next few days of my stay she was there every day when i called her. I can tell she loves me but still, the next shocker came.

I saw her texting that beta guy after they came back from the trip. Saying shit like "good night" and sending him kiss emojis and what not. she then proceeded to cry and explain he is only a friend and swore she never had anything with him, i mean i know for a fact that they grew up together but still. she even told me to come with her and talk to the guy in front of her, to prove that she never had anything with him, but i couldnt give a fuck about that...after that shit I told her i need to think about our relationship and I might break up with her, which led her to more tears, and saying it would be stupid to leave her for something she never did, so I still gave her another chance.

Then we agreed on a "break" for 10 days, which i proposed, booked a flight for next day and left. Ofc not 2 days passed and she texted me, called me and told me she cant spend a day without hearing from me. So we continued as usual, but then i noticed once again in recent few weeks, with time she became distant again. She told me she doesnt know if she loves me anymore, that she is in alot of stress because of work, school and our LDR is making it even harder for her, especially since she kind of has to hide it from her family. After that I told her it would be best to just break up...again, she agreed. We havent heard from each other for few days. and then she started to text me again, saying that she found herself again, and that she realized she doesnt want to move on without me...so we talked and after few days, it really starts to feel like we are at the begging of the relationship. now I'am the one who is taking it slow, sometimes a day goes by where i dont text, and then the next day it seems like she cant wait to hear from me. There is constant "I love you", and she cant stop talking about our future together, and how much she misses me. I plan on moving to where she lives in the next few weeks, and she seems excited about that and it feels like she cant wait...When i stopped texting her all the time and responding to her messages on time, it seems like she became aware that I actually might leave her, and makes me think she is genuinely afraid of that.

but still...

I need a god damn advice, should I wait to move there and see where things go from there. Did I made stupid mistake for not breaking up with her long time ago? I cant tell we were in a normal LTR to begin with, because this LDR really wasnt good for either of us, and I'am aware that feelings do fade away without physical contact, and thats one of the main reasons I want to give this new relationship another go when I finally move... someone slap me and give me some input.