Morning fellas,

Lurking TRP since October. Lifting for three years now. Went through the sidebar, solid. Recently started reading marriedTRP. Right now dealing with LTR which has been falling apart for a while, when RP applied "magic" happened - she is into me, horny all the time and is showing the "need of needing me". I am still dealing with always explaining myself in front of her when question aka shit test is asked like: "Why You used two nails instead of one for hanging the mirror?". Explaining for two minutes that mirror is too heavy for one nail is not working out, she is just pissed because I've used two nails. NGAF at all cause She is badly testing me if I know what I'm doing. Than she is happy after two hours that the mirror is stable. Yep... I was alpha, NGAF, MGTOW, aware of AWALT, been through solid anger stage for 7 months. Then comes the LTR, roll down to beta. Been afraid of her, what She will think, such a fluffy pussy. Giving her gifts everytime, texting where I am and what I'm doing atm. Even at work I was superstressed that she might be mad about something, worried like crazy. Demanded respect from her and it was a total disaster. Hear a few times that if I want, I can go and no need to stay in relationship - emotional terror at it's best. Now recovering, recently realised that I NEED THAT as wanting it won't help me at all. So now I have no idea how to walk in this world, still browsing trp and finding that.

But, my question is: How do I deal with New Years party. Last year I rejected ALL my friends (fem/male) and joined her with HER friends. I know what You think. Guess what - You are right. But now I want to spend it with my best friends and her. How do I deal with it? What is the approach? She will insist that she wants to go with her friends, because I was so beta before she will go for it. I am a little lost, after this time with RP.

Stay safe.