Swallowed the pill about 7 months ago. For the first time in my life I'm experiencing nihilism. Ironically I started to read the rational male yesterday and in the stages he talks about nihilism, it was strange finding out why I have been acting/feeling this way. I didn't really see it and just kinda felt it. I even had a discussion a week ago with someone, when I had no idea what it was, saying I found like meaningless.

I assume this is just a stage, as I have never felt like this in my life, and hopefully the last because it's been a tough 7 months. Actually, I really could care less about anything. I have felt somewhat suicidal or had visions/dreams of me killing myself and writing notes to those in my life. However, I would seek help before hand... So no need to worry. Just explaining how I feel.

Has anyone else felt this whilst in the depression phase or coming out of it? I do accept and understand the red pill is the only way for me, it doesn't mean that I don't get upset about my past experiences in the process.

Any tips or advice from anyone who has experienced this feeling of nihilism? Thank you guys for always being there.