Been doing a lot of mediation the past while, have found calmness but it has also lowered what I think is my ego.

I don't impose myself in social situations 80% of the time I'm listening rather then doing the talking mostly because i feel others would rather be talking then listening and I'm happy enough to listen and I always kind of kept myself to myself

But this comes across as weakness

Essentially I operate in other people's frames the majority of the time and I know what this means.

On the other hand I boxed as a kid for years , spent years in bar work , am a high earner for my area just starting a good career, and have Hobby's which would be considered far out from the mainstream.

On paper I should be dominate in social situations but tbh it doesn't feel natural to me and is forced, as previously mentioned I'f others would rather lead then that's fine by me I don't see the point getting into a frame battle.

Bit of a ramble, what do you guys think?