I have really fucking bad oneitis for a girl. She was super cute and sweet and when we dated we had sex but it was never that great of sex. She broke up with me and rode the cc is foreign country. Now she's super submissive and likes to fuck rough and basically is a sex addict. We made a deal that when she gets back we would get back together if I had a job. I was still interviewing with places so when she got back she basically cut me out of her life and went to some fatass. Now she's her perfect whore. I eventually did get a job. I can't help but feel so much regret. She was super sweet and likes it rough and I don't think I can find someone else better. Also another thing is that she has a beautiful voice so when you're fucking her it sounds like heaven. I'm so depressed and really upset. I blocked her on everything. Literally everything. But the fact that I could've had the girl of my dreams and been set for my life stings. I'm pretty young 21, still in college. I have so many fantasies which I want to do with other girls and fuck girls I barely know. But I feel like she might've been a lot better than those. I haven't eaten for days. My mood is just rotten. I'm sad as a motherfucker. I read the sidebar but that just makes my heart sink even more. I try to take care of myself but just knowing that I could've had it all already if I had worked harder for her.....just sucks. Whenever I tell my friends they say I'm pathetic but they don't get laid either and have dead ass lives like me. Now to cope I watc submissive and rough porn and imagine what it's like to fuck my ex. Someone please please talk me why she's not some special snowflake. She seems perfect and I would love to have a girl like that. FUCK