Just broke up with my girlfriend of almost a year yesterday morning. She was being a bitch to me over text about some money I owed her for a morning after pill, but idk I just got so sick of her in that moment. I told her I'd give her extra to stay the fuck away from me with her shitty attitude. She works at a local bar and venue very close to my house and everybody that we know pretty much goes there. She told me, "Don't come to the bar tonight, it's Latin club music." I told her I may bring a date. "You won't be able to make it through the door." And then I said said my last piece which was, "we're through." She immediately at 11:30 pm posted a picture she had sent me about about a week prior of her after a shower with her hair braided, wearing a kimono I bought her to Instagram with the caption, "Single in time for vday ❤️". So like 100 women liked it and commented and I was shocked.

Over the day I felt a new energy- I have missed being single. I wish I could feel like that without having to be single. That's what's weird. I don't like the hassle of looking for girls. Maybe because my smv is still low. But she was all mine, but I can't take the bullshit attitude. And the picture she posted and the way she did it...

I definitely can't take her back now. It's over. But this other energy is inside me. It says I fucked up! And that I am alone and she is gonna get rammed in the kimono I bought her. On the bed I used to sleep in by the retarded ass dog I used to walk, and I'll just be over here without her. Cause there really is no one quite like her... Oneitis.

I finished work, nabbing a girl's number- the finest chick there, but still nothing may come of it at all. I went home and saw some of my boys and joked around. I felt fine. One of them wants me to travel with him to his girls town and party and try to nail a chick up there, but I don't like getting wasted anymore and I really don't even want to leave town just to nail some broad. I want to stay in my room and work on music and lift. Which is exactly what I did with the rest of my day. I played music and went to the gym and ate like $30 worth of food. It was a freeing feeling with the wind on me at night after leaving the gym. I felt good. But also like I have a dark cloud inside my chest. I may not like the way she was treating me but I love her... Is that weird. Even if I can't be monogamous I love her. Is that weird? My previous ex obviously had a problem with me dating her and is always sweet to me in person, but then acts crazy after the fact. I love that bit h too. These are two fairly attractive women in the area, both of which I've dated for a about 2 years and 1 year. I love em, but I feel like my world is drying up. If I got two psychotic ex's walking around, I'm gonna get pegged with all kinds of Bullshit.. I have fear there. Fear about not being able to go out. Fear that lifting and music won't help. It's weird man... Somebody gimme something useful. I woke up wanting to undo the whole thing.

TL;DR Broke up with my girlfriend of one year. She immediately posts sexy picture advertising Singledon on social media. I feel great, but suddenly want her back.