my life is shitty,but very fixable,if i could let go of her

opening her instagram and seeing her together with her boyfriend made me sob in a second

i've spent so much time thinking about her,maladaptive daydreaming too,got bullied and made fun of her in hs,and i still loved her and thought of her as an sweet angel

it's the last piece that i need to let go off

has anyone had severe oneitis like myself ?

im talking 5-6 years almost everyday

i have nothing currently,im in pain,im shaking and sobbing