You can check my post history, it's about the same girl - basically I was seeing a girl and she ditched me for another guy, who she's now in a committed relationship with. I really wanted this chick, she's everything I look for. I was slowly getting her off my mind, but would still think about her every day. It's bad, I know. I've been working out, picking up hobbies, trying to make more friends, but she always creeps back in.

I've fucked 3 other women, one I've been seeing fairly regularly and is really into the sex, but I don't get the same feeling from her, and it's not helping me move forward.

Over the weekend, I was at a music festival. My friend told me he bumped in to her there, which was random cause she's not really part of that/our scene. I was tripping on acid and it induced a lot of anxiety. Basically the rest of the festival I spent worrying that I'd run in to her and her group. I didn't... but it ruined my time there, especially being on drugs.

Afterwards I found out she'd blocked me on Facebook. I texted her asking why, and she said she was trying to move on and didn't want to see my online presence. I guess it opened up a can of worms cause she basically said she didn't want to reconnect with me at all, despite what she said in the past. I didn't lash out, but I said to her I can't believe anything she's ever said to me in the past and that I've lost all respect for her. The next morning I apologised for being mean, told her I was just coming down from drugs and didn't really mean it.

tl;dr - recontacted my oneitis, feel like a piece of shit.

I know you're all cringing right now, and fair enough, I am too. My questions are: How do I move forward once and for all? How do I reframe my relationship (in my own mind) with her to make it so that I don't regress into bad habits again? How do I stop being such a bitch about her, putting her on a pedestal and obsessing over someone that fucked me over?