So I am having some issues right now trying to understand this. Its a real long story but im gonna narrow it down.

Basically mom meets AF(dad), and is with him 10+ years, but only married him for 3, had me, then divorced. Mom got my dad his job contracts, his lifestyle..basically everything, and he was fucking tons of other women, they split up, he was there for 2 years of my life then that was it. Court ordered him to pay 10 dollars a month(yes seriously), so she never took him to child support and she did not receive alimony.

Anyways IDK if my dad gives a fuck about me. Im moving with him for a year and im nervous/anxious of what to find. He never made efforts to call me, he never contacts me first, he never paid(im 18 now, so he is not responsible) any of my responsibilities like school stuff, car, insurance, food, rent..nothing.

Never spent holidays or anything with him. He lives in another country, in Europe, but that doesn't mean he couldn't have had me fly over there. He is the epitome of AF seriously..Hes fucked over 500 girls or so he tells me. But he is such a fucking dick. I've seen him maybe a total of 5 months over the course of 16 years.(not including my first two years)

He has also never said sorry to me for being a deadbeat dad and basically abandoning me. My mother never put a restriction on him if thats what your wondering as she even paid the plane ticket once to go see him and never bad mouths him...just says what I already know(irresponsible).

I dont understand. How do I talk my frustrations with him? I have so much held on. Should I talk to him about it now, or wait until I move in with him

I just feel like he owes me so much. He just got a good ass job running a business and still doesn't ask if I need anything, or whatever. And what sketches me the most is that in my whole life he never had a job(or so he says) but the moment I turn 18 he just gets an incredible job. I wanna say its coincidence..but is it really?

I know TRP says this and that but if you dont want a fucking kid get a vasectomy. You should at least be responsible for something like that towards the kid, not the mother. Im not angry at how he treated my mom..im angry about how he treated me and there isnt a single voice of remorse/embarrassment in his voice..he literally thinks everything is fine.

How do I talk to him about my absence of a parental figure during my life? How do I tell him how angry I've been all these years, I dont wanna just wait until I go down there and throw all of these things at him like a chick. But idk if through the phone is the best case scenerio either.

Also everytime he mentions girls he fucks he says.."remember your my son!"..which makes me embarrassed as fuck because I dont have 10% of the charisma he has. I cant get laid for shit, and im hoping to pick up on some of his charisma when I live with him..but I am so embarrassed to tell him his son isnt like him in that aspect.

What do you guys think?

Edit: I did try to make it as short as possible