I’m not sure what’s up with me. I feel great, my life is great, but I feel so much better when I’m loud, brash, and cross people’s boundaries. First day of school I did just that and I felt so amazing. It’s like my testosterone boosted thrice and I felt invincible. I I want to do it more and more, it’s like a drug to me.

I’m not doing anything awful in my opinion. It’s not just bullying specifically, either. I’m not sure how to describe it. Being big and bad, loud. Opposite of shy basically.