I saw this comment on TRP main, and it really resonated with me.

"It's not the sex itself, it's the validation of someone wanting to have sex with you. Think about it, if it was just the sex itself we wanted, we would simply pay for prostitutes and pornstars and save ourselves the misery"

I've found myself in a cycle of "It's all pink on the inside."

I don't watch porn or masturbate often, however, I do find the chase to be more fun than the goal.

I'm almost 21, and by no means an Incel, but I find myself considering having sex not as a goal. I enjoy more: the flirting, making a girl blush with a proper neg, getting her to say the, "We're not having Sex tonight" and similar situations far more exciting than actual sex.

I use drugs, which might be the problem. Nevertheless, having had sex many times in many varieties, I still value the chase over the Reward.

Am I addicted to the thrill of sustaining an abundance reality, or does the problem go deeper, coming from a lack of true self worth and esteem?

I've never disappointed a girl in sex, but I find the act itself quite boring. I see the reward of sex as not worth the work, but I find the work intrinsically more rewarding than sex itself.

It's like I enjoy more working hard to the woman's orgasm than my own.

I think it's Power Play, but how does this fit in with TRP?

Your opinions would be especially appreciated:

/u/NeoreactionSafe

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