Well, my "LTR" is going to an exchange program with her female friend to spain for 4 - 5 months. It fucking sucks. I am a dead man walking to be honest, i just dont show it off. It was an good ltr but man, i did not expect it. At first she was like - it is only 4 months, we can still rent together. Now she says she cant afford that - and i get that. But fucking fuck dudes, i feel its over. Over with this one. I am dead man walking that see no point in anything(damn oneitis i guess). If i had such an opportunity i would probably go too, you can earn some money + a lot of new friends. BUT IT FUCKING HURTS LIKE HELL when i am on the other side. LTR ffs.
I feel like crap, most of my older friends are abroad too(for work tho). When i work think less about it but its still dominating my life. And its making it darker and darker. I know no man should cry but i feel like it. Hell one of oneitis, right? Damn. I feel so disrespected, blind, stupid? I dont know. What the hell should i do now?