So I'm pretty new to TRP stuff and was recently a kissless virgin until last week. At the night of my high school graduation party, I got rid of the kissless part when I made out with this girl I had dated on and off in middle and early high school. I quickly made my first mistake that night when she asked me "what does this make us?" and I answered, "well I guess we're dating now". I couldn't go in for the poon both chances that I've had because of parents, but I did finger her and almost got some head before parent cockblock. Now I'm wondering whether going for the poon is worth it. I think it wouldn't be too hard and I know she's not a virgin. She's definitely really into me and wants an LTR, but I'm not emotionally invested at all and feel her clinginess is quite a drag. I also fucked myself when she asked me out to the mall yesterday becuase "I really want an outfit I saw there", and I only realized too late that was likely a ploy to get me to buy it for her. Would TRP suggest I dodge this mall date and break up with her or should I try to swipe my v-card first?

Edit: I'd also like to mention in the main post that she seems to exhibit BPD symptoms, tried to kill herself before, quickly sexual, idolizes me. She also had stuff in her email about baby clothes and products so it might be my paranoia but she might be looking to lock me down.