It's clear the LTR is over. Sex is still crazy. Porn star shit and just got into anal. She's a hot blonde.

On one hand hooking up with her gives me the confidence in knowing a hot girl wants me to fuck her like that. It helps in approaches to other girls and keeps me unavailable and not needy (because i'm not completely sex deprived) when talking to other girls.

On the other hand I could see myself using sex with my ex as a crutch - it's much easier to keep fucking her than finding a girl who's equal or more attractive. All the girls I've gotten so far aren't super hot as my SMV is low right now (I'm working on it). Only reason I got the hot blonde is cause she's super insecure/a hoe even.

We both have the understanding that we'll keep fucking until one of us meets someone better. When I find out she hooked up with someone it bothers me for like 2 hours max and then I'm good. I'm working on my SMV either way. Do I keep fucking her until I get my SMV up and find some other girls that are just as hot? or do I let this one go, accept that I'll have to settle for no sex or sex with average girls for a while until I get my SMV up?