My ex broke up with me a little over a year ago. We dated for 5 years. Her main reason was because she said I didn’t want to marry her. I told her I could see myself with her I just couldn’t put a date on it. I acted beta during the breakup basically saying I would stay more committed, even cried, and all that I know I shouldn’t have done but we all have been there

We live in the same city and during that year I haven’t seen her once. We haven’t talked once. But still she’s on my mind. We never fought and this came out of nowhere. She’s 30 and I’m 28. The reason she broke up with me could have been an excuse for sure but I guess I’ll never know

I have been having fun...probably fucked 10 girls within that year..trying to learn more and more about getting girls and of course I’ve messed up a lot but trying to get better

Why the fuck am I still thinking about her and wanting to see her? My friends are telling me just to wish her a happy birthday next week but that’s probably not the right thing to do right? Any contact with her would be bad to do right? I guess I just want her to see how much I changed..and for the better. She was very submissive and I entered her frame I think, it was so easy to hold frame in front of her but I even failed that because I didn’t know any better