In my previous relationship, I am an ultimate beta that put my ex on pedestal and hoping doing nice things for her will get affection. We made out but never had sex, so I am still a virgin at 25. She eventually broke up with me a year ago due to my beta behaviors and I understand it's my fault. Now I am improving everyday by lifting, being more social and reading more.

Now the main dilemma: Today one escort on a dating app contacted me asking if I want some of the services. I acted aloof and just asked about the prices and services, and told her I will let her know later tomorrow about the time. Deep down I am very anxious and uncomfortable, but I decided to give it a shot. I know I have to do this but just need you guys to affirm my decisions.

I also want to know what needs to be prepared, like condoms, etc. I don't want to get kidnapped...

Thank you.