I think I nearly overdosed on the redpill. But, I wonder if I'm only FEELING overdosed, but not actually overdosed. Is it natural to feel scared when you're starting to redpill yourself?

I didn't like the idea of the red pill since I'm a beta, but the more I read, the more I got interested and I started to adopt the beliefs. I haven't started to live a redpilled life, I've only read about it so far. I've been thinking more and more about living a redpilled life, until I got scared of my future a few minutes earlier . I feel I'm too redpilled. Is this normal? Should I keep pushing myself to become redpilled? I think I want to go back to being bluepilled. I think I'm taking the redpill too far. How much redpill is too much?

Maybe I'm confusing the definition of a redpill. I've been learning a slightly extreme Trump-version redpill.

Is it okay if I go back to being bluepilled?