I have no idea what I should study.

I kind of want to start something new and then stick to it and be good at it.

I am already 22. I started physics, but it does not work out so well. It's a pain, because I have no idea what to do with it and no motivation to learn, because I have no vision and it's hard as fuck, I might probably fail anyways. I had avarage grades in school, so things law and medcine won't be possible and I shouldn't have started physics. I do like humanities, but you can't really make a living off it. I mean it is not very save. It's like being a painter, if no one likes your pieces of art, you will be a taxi driver, end up as a custodian of the museum or starve to death. Engineering or another natural science probably won't be a good option either, after sucking at physics. I want to do something where I am good at, not where I make it with with doleful outcry or the high risk of loosing everything, because I might fail the final exams.

I feel so goddamn useless and lost. I don't know what to do with myself.

I think my IQ is about 110, at least that's what 2 onlinge tests said. So a bit above avarage, but not really good enaugh to be in a top position: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pu__97bVyOc

What do you think about being a teacher? I know it's not maybe not the best, but at least I get a save job and I can work with human being and maybe help some kids, especially the boys, who need male role models.

I don't know about economy, that's kind of what every lost guy does and don't you end up in a better position if you do an apprenticeship straight after middle school and work from there? I mean why did I go to high school then.

Are there any teachers out here? I mean I can still do thing like getting a trainer certification (I love sports and I am kind of a gym chad), or physiotherapy courses or even start a business, when I am a teacher, because you will have some free time as teach.

I just think I need to do something now, bevore I am really too old. I don't want to be peter pan anymore. How do I know what to study? I know I should just pick a thing and stick to it. I think I am somehow very good at analyzing people including myself and in some way very aware of things and people, maybe I should try to make the admission exam for Psychologie. I mean that is interesting to me and I could help people, but the admission exam is hard and many people do it, so probalby won't work with out my IQ...

fuck my life! Getting pussy and looking good alone is not everything and does not make me happy. I am no woman after all.

How to be happy, if you are not dumb enaugh to not care, but not smart enaugh to make something good out of it?