This happens to me every year around this time. One way or the other, business slows down with all the holiday vacations happening, my plates tend to break because I don't want to spend all day with them (winter female nesting ritual), I start eating and convalescing more and working out less, and I end up feeling like I do today: completely pitiful.

I look the same, I perform the same actions, I have the same abilities and skills, the same charm, the same everything - the difference is I feel like a big ugly stupid turd and nothing can seem to change it.

I understand completely what's wrong, and I'm only posting this because I think it may help out some of you dudes who may experience the same "winter setback" or recurrence of bluepill thought patterns when the sun disappears for a few months and it gets dark at 4 pm.

Just keep in mind that it will pass, try your absolute best to remain in a strict routine (work, workout, etc) and it will pass. All of us trip over our own feet from time to time, don't let the feels become reals.

I'm going to the gym to kick my own ass right now, if you're feeling down because the weather sucks and it's dark all the time and your game feels weak and you're not getting enough Tinder matches and your career suddenly seems wrong and etc etc then do the same - stick to your mission and routine and ride this shit out.