Longtime lurker, first time poster. I've always appreciated the wisdom of TRP and i've learned alot from this community, So here we go:

I used to be a scrawny, anxiety ridden, depressed nerd. A complete NEET. But long story short I'm getting my shit together. Going back to school, getting fit, finally had a LTR that was sexually satisfying, etc. But there is one thing that keeps dragging me down... I'm 5'4". I know there is an abundance of height related threads, so I'll try not to beat a dead horse (too hard).

I've learned to love myself and I have more confidence than most men in most situations. Im ambitious and I'm improving almost every vector of my life. But until I'm rolling in dough and can broadcast my success in a materialist way, I can't help but run up against the height wall... and it's VERY disheartening. I'm usually good at psyching myself up and not letting it hurt my confidence, but I'm only human. Often I flip it around and take pride in the fact that I need to work twice as hard as others to have half the SMV they have... But it's not always so easy. I find that I have to be vigilant emotionally, or this frustration can spiral into a hopelessness that in turn spirals into full-blown depression. That hasn't happened in a while; but now that I'm working and going to school, I have to confront this challenge more often than when I was a NEET and could distract myself with Gaming. Height is the one thing about myself that I can't change and I don't know how to reconcile that. My dad is 5'8" so he's on the short side but not as extreme... And he got a fuckton of pussy at my age, but he has the blind confidence that only severe adhd and a learning disability can provide.

Positive self-talk, and reminding myself of how far I've come helps my confidence, but when the chips are down... reality hits me hard regardless of any confidence I've built. Bars and clubs are a nightmare since (despite my confidence and decent appearance) whenever I try to dance or make conversation with any woman they give me a look of disgust or pity. Not to mention that I feel like a child wading through a sea of adults because of height and it seems others see me that way as well (I'm 23 years old for reference). I'm starting to wish I was gay since most gay guys I know dont act in such a toxic way. Yup. It gets that bad.

I suppose I'm coming here for advice as much as I am just to vent. Any thoughts brothers?

Edit: Apologies for spelling and grammar mistakes. On my phone and slightly sleep deprived. Tomorrow I'll return and correct any crimes against the English language.

Edit: apologies if this is in the wrong sub or has the wrong flair. Automod bot on TRP made it seem like this is the correct sub to post this in.