This is a long post, English is not my first language, please excuse any written errors with grammatics or formatting, if you would like to know a piece of information I may have missed, I will gladly inform you.

The title may have got you thinking, 'probably just another Blue Pill moment' with a lady - however I come to you for entirely different reasons askrp. I will be writing with as little bias as possible, giving a glimpse of both sides. With that being said, I'd like to give an introduction to myself briefly before spilling the beans.

I had discovered the RP at an early age of 16 during, and hit the golden point that after fucking so many bitches, I no longer have pussy on a pedestal or in my top priorities. This has allowed me to focus on my life more, further developing myself, my relationships, and constant improvement. I am currently engaged in an LTR with a very loving girl and enjoy it very much as it does not get much in my way of life. Beautiful conservative mentality, fantastic family, and I would call her father quite the Alpha, obviously in his own ways. He has seriously disciplined her (Very Russian family), but nonetheless she's still and always a child.

I am currently finishing High School, and already accepted into college for Police Foundations, leading to the Police Academy afterwards. I am extremely confident in my decision, and would undertake anything to get through with it - be it break up with my girlfriend, move provinces (Canada, yikes), anything. My father is certainly not, and he was raised in the Soviet Union by his single mother who forced him to undertake the career of a Musician/Pianist, which was fantastic if you had an unbeatable talent (he certainly does).

Father is a Ukrainian, never liked Russians and their values, still doesn't, but married a Russian woman. Father is also as we might describe, quite Beta, a clingy, highly emotional, and demanding father. He wants a doctor, a lawyer, and even a god damn Videographer but not a cop. He has constantly told me I am a stubborn dumb ass, look to my own values, and things he says to me fly from one ear out the other. I do not see him as a role model for many reasons, and have reaffirmed such to him. He sees my deterioration, I see my progress.

A recent fight has shown both of our true colors - that being I am becoming the stoic man I have been striving to be, and he only continues his combustion of all sorts of hormones and chemicals, nearly using brute force to provoke me. He does not like my girlfriend, my friends - making ridiculous ultimatums to make me drop all of them - and he does not like most of my life, as least depressing as I could put it. They have added to my life for years now, and have so far proven righteous, friendly, caring to my family, especially to my father.

The golden question is, am I wrong?

Have I been listening to too much of myself? Have I actually put my girl on a pedestal and I don't even realize it? Should I continue in this career choice, ignoring the reciprocation it could open up (my father ignoring me for the rest of my life)?