I'm a 17 year old teen guy who plays football. I've been depressed ever since I moved 3 years ago and I hate myself and I hate life. My family life sucks and everyone is always upset and angry. My dad told me a few weeks ago that he didn't know if he could last much longer with my mom. I've known they don't like each other. My dad is a workaholic self improvement health nut guy while my mom is hard nosed stubborn and a anti-healthy procrastinator. She's at least 100lbs overweight and she just spends and yells at everyone because she thinks her life is hard. She cooks for us and does laundry but lately the food just hasn't had the same amount of love and the laundry can't even fucking be right because she just waits weeks to fold it. We also have two german shepard dogs that she wanted so bad that she doesn't even take care of. My grandfather takes care of them. Besides that, she just goes on tiktok all day. My older sister talked to me and said how much she hated the family life too so we both decided to bring up that we want them to split. My dad agreed and then we talked to my mom and she is in denial. She always has been and always will be. She just doesn't give a shit. And now she's saying how she doesn't wanna lose me to my dad and all this crap. I love my mom and I don't want her to be lonely and she looks out for me on some things but she tries to stifle the shit out of me and she also tries to manipulate me. She even tried to make me conspire against my sister today to fuck up the divorce. And now she's talking about financial shit because "well i'm a stay at home mom and I have no skills." My family is well off she doesn't need to work another fucking day in her life. And I love her like I said but I feel like i'm being manipulated and I don't want her to be alone because I care about her but I don't even wanna visit her.