I'm a 25 year old student who had only one short relationship recently and even there while breaking up she said something like "I only THOUGHT I like you". Otherwise I have to deal with constant rejection, which is causing more and more frustration, depression and loneliness. recently I go rejected again and the way it happened caused me to get into the depressed state again. First she said no to a hangout, than we went to club with friends, danced together and kissed, she said yes to a date but acted distant during the week so I asked her again after we hung out with some friends, she said yes, but a few days after that she called it off and this totally destroyed me, to the point where I started to have suicidal thoughts, as it was the first time something like this happened.

I don't really have a problem with approaching women, but my behaviour can be sometimes quite weird (for example when I'm with a girl friend in a club I want to dance or drink with her, even though I don't have any ulterior motives) and apparently quite creepy, as when I truly like the girl I tend to get quite obsessive.

Also while my face isn't the ugliest, I'm a huge nerd and so I don't exercise much at all (tried to go to gym last year, but it was mostly extremely boring).

Loneliness (either the no girlfriend or no real friends type) scarred me quite a bit already and I want to destroy this feeling as soon as possible so I can finally try some long term relationship and/or focus on other parts of my life and so I've decided to write this and recieve some helpful tips or talk with some anonymous people abut what I want to do.