How to get back and find confidence again? Atm feels as if doomed being nice and weak, although I know it not to be true. But this narcissisistic relationsship broke me. Gaslighting, lovebombing, you name it. Brought to her «homecourt» and paraded around. Me being lost in a haze. It was hell on earth. Trying to believe the disney-story going deep to find it not true, as a social experiment.

How to restart after a realization such as this?