You know!? Gaddamn

Granted I'm starting nofap all over again, but today I was in the city and all these fly devotchas be walking by and I'd just have this anchor in my chest that doubles as a padlock over my mouth. For most my life I have not been able to communicate well despite being fluent in my only known language of English. I can't seem to make a point or introduce myself to a girl. I've talked to hot girls, had drunk hook ups but I'm still a virgin and 20. Really thinking I should go to a brothel since theyre legal here. I'm sick of this and getting annoyed that I'm impatient. I want to be cooler than this and actually show how cool I am lol