Bottom line, I've become a person who, especially these last couple of years, finds myself changing greatly: my dress, my physical body, finances, goals, etc. I'm growing up.

Here in the onset (1 year, dropped all my weight, have begun lifting to look good) of this change, little things have started to bother me. I used to drink hard, party, all that. Now I'm trying to clean up my image, clean myself up and I have been doing that. I got a steady job. As a by-product I find myself wanting to go into FB delete it & start over in a couple months when I've reached some of my starter goals. The only thing holding me back is some of the sick music connections I have made as I traveled.

This is just part of a feeling that has begun as I have seriously started trying to clean up my life. I'm in my mid 20's and time is closing fast on important life decisions. That aside, I feel like the person I am on the journey to becoming is still undefined & I don't know how to identify that: who I am to become? What sort of quality role models are there out there? It has been an amazing journey and obviously there are things that keep me, me..but I want the real things in life..attitude is everything.

This is one part of seduction I have to decide upon and I think its limiting me the most- or am I reading to much into it? This is the place where instead of just 'acting' how I should be (and ignoring the other areas in life) I instead find who I am supposed to be then build those things on top culminating to a better me. What if I truly developed into who I should become, how much more attention would I get? I don't speak from a shallow point of view, rather the understanding that once I have attained what I am looking for, I can be that much more "in my element" at all times.

This is a lot in a question, if I should direct this question elsewhere please let me know. Thoughts from those who frequent this board most would be appreciated