Fired up rant... Downvotes incoming haha.

So... Female friend was trying to set me up with her friend. Didn't work out so well the friend wasnt into me and deleted me. Normally this kinda stuff doesnt get to me, and she wasnt even that good looking she was pretty average. But this time it really got to me and made me think...what if i never find someone?.

I hate how saying or doing one thing wrong can completely turn someone off within the first few hours of talking. I hate walking on eggshells to not come across as needy, but also wanting communicate my interest. I hate my lack of confidence. I hate my low motivation and depressed state im always in. I hate that the only girl who likes me is a lying pregnant psychopath who i wouldnt even be seen in public with nevermind wife up. I hate sitting in this room all day. I hate my fucking life.

I wish something would come along and help me get out of this rut. I need something or someone to fucking show me the way and give me a path to walk on so i can become good with girls, get a fucking job and stop being such a lowlife. I fucking hate myself.

Rant over. Apologies.

Edit: thankyou to the people who are actually trying to help.