Today was a very strange and annoying day for me.

I had many opportunities to talk to some of my classmates and others but i messed up and hesitated too long before i could say anything. I find that its harder for me to look others in the eye when i'm tired. And i've also found that i need to learn how to relax more in social situations, i get easily carried away and i end up saying stupid shit.

I also went to a local shopping district in my area with one of my parents. I tried looking around for girls close-ish to my age and when i saw a woman probably in her 20's i tried looking her in the eye as we walked past each other, if she had looked at mine i would have like to try smiling at her.

Its harder to stay positive when your upset/disappointed obviously, but ill take this as a learning opportunity. DON'T HESITATE. SAY SOMETHING, SAY ANYTHING! It doesn't matter what i say as long as i put myself out there and get uncomfortable. So thats what i want to practice between approaches, calm and collected