So today started of great. I spoke to this chick in the morning about school (I know, boring topic but it was the first time conversing with her. She was pretty quiet. A 5/10.). A good start compared to yesterday. Later on arrived at campus and things took a turn for the worst .Went into lecture hall and sat next to a mate. Saw a hot chick in the class (8/10) so decided to approaching her-. Had to get up from my seat and walk around the whole auditorium. By this time the lecture had started and I just walked out of the lecture.

There were just so many people and I froze. Was hit with the biggest fukken load of anxiety, couldn't even walk straight as I ended up in the food court. Hoodie up. Music on. Grrr, annoyed at myself. Not really sure what to take from this, really putting me off pickup. I'm holding on though staying strong. Going to see what tomorrow holds, going to the park- will just converse with a random stranger and see where it leads me. Ive found less people makes me less nervous.