I been doing some reflecting and I realized I have a problem, I chase girls that are a challenge. Girls that are a challenge just get me so hooked. I'll realize often that I'm completely emotionally invested and almost desperate to win a woman that I know for a fact has less to offer me than I do to her. I'll even ignore more beautiful girls to go for the hard ones.

Why do I do this, and how do I fix it? I just end up being unattractive as fuck by my neediness. How do I kill that ego, that part of me that wants these women probably to prove something. To prove I can, to prove my own value. I know somethings wrong but I can't quiet understand why I do it, what deep inside me wants these girls.