i was out tobight partying and everyone else I met was either a teenager or just kinda ....stupid ?

like, I remember going out when I was like 16-20 and all .I could think about was sex, but now I'm 28 and being out partying might be the least erotic thing. i kinda don't even want to be sexual with girls. like, I''m just not horny. sure I will for sure feel lobely and horny the next day, but not in the moment. especially in my town which is a local centre for sure, but the q

whole state I'm in is kinda rural so even in my city which is the capital of the state the vibe is just kinda rural, kinda lost, everyone just being really drunk and I just feel so out of place. and don't get me wrong I love partying, I love drinking, I love girls. but in this environment everything just feels like a dumb act. and usually i will end up talking to some people but it will all feel kore like a diplomatic exchange between me and the people from that place. and I now how to kove rougjly, I m now how to come out of this coming over well, being liked by people, being kinda above everything, not having fights etc. but the whole environment is just soo bad. i feel so out of place. it's okay at student parties of my university because the crowd is more international and more "normal but the every weekend parties that are usually visited by the locals .... man it's like a parody. there's always someone fighting, lots of 18-20 year old boys screaming around, someone's really unhealthy looking 45 year old mum standing around and smoking one cigarette after the other, a table full of 23-24 year olds who look like the biggest snobs you've ever seen who bougj

ut a 400€ bottle of Vodka that would be 20€ in the supermarket, 4 not enough space for dancing but not really a place to chill out and talk either, and it's not nust one place, the whole city centre is like that on the weekend.