I was thinking again that I'm shit and should just quit and I was in the cashier line and one girl and one guy were ahead of me. The cashier girl was talking with the girl and they were being super friendly and I was thinking women are so easily friendly with each other but make it difficult with guys, if they ever wanted to they could just ban together and make it impossible.

Then an A type guy went up next and I watched the punk type girl switch gears and try to get attention from him and he kind of blew her off and I thought there was no way that type of girl was going to get attention from that type of guy with that kind pedestal approach.

I thought I'm just going to be a hermit asshole because I have no self confidence right now. Then I thought fuck it, I don't care if I'm a piece of shit or unworthy this girl is a cute sweet heart and I'm going to go all out to make her feel it and I don't care what she thinks of me only what she feels. So I switched gears, smiled when I got up, made her feel it, flirted and teased and connected with her and by the time I left we were both smiling.